Sometimes when I’m playing with you, I try to see what you’re seeing when you’re looking at me. I try to im Imagine what you could be thinking about me. If you look up to me, think I’m kind, or smart or fun. I asked you this week, “When you see me, what do you see?” You said “Uhhhhh Nothing” lol. I’ll ask you again in the future and see what you said.
I don’t know when you’ll read this. You are a huge Spider-Man fan. We’ve watched every one of the movies countless times. We beat the Marvel Spider-Man game about 2 times, and the Marvel Spider-Man: Miles Morales game 3 times. The last comic book we read was the Spiderverse Series where Annie May Parker is a Spider-Man in a different universe, It was really weird but funny reading about Aunt May kicking butt as a Spider-Woman. Every girl that you see you call Gwen Stacy!
You also like the DC Super Heroes including Teen Titans and the DC Super Hero Girls. You’ve seen that seriese about 5 times over.
It’s really tough right now. We’re in the middle of a pandemic where me and your mom are working from home and you’re doing a really good job of keeping yourself entertained. I got you tablet last Christmas and you like to draw with the stylus a lot which is really cool. I was never that good at drawing but I am trying to learn to draw also. I drew a funky looking girl and you named her Wanabi, which leter on you told me you were referring to Yuri Watanabe from the spider game but I left the name as Wanabi.
I’m right in the middle of taking some courses so I want you to know how proud I am that you are able to handle me doing work and school. I am doing my best to play with you as much as I can. In all this craziness, I’m hoping the most that you do remember the time I make sure to set aside each day to play games with you.
I’ve told people that I have to be your dad and your best friend. I promise to you that i’m always going to strive to be best at both. I’m confident that if I can do a good job of being both that you will always love and respect me.
Me and your mom, we come from completely opposite backgrounds. I was brought up with too much stuff with too much freedom. I think your mom had the opposite. I’m trying hard to give you the perfect balance of the two of us and I know your mom is trying hard too. I know that we are tough on you and it’s really confusing but I’m hoping by the time you read this you’ll understand why we are that way and hope that we’ve made the right choices on your behalf.
I don’t know what our future holds. I’m hoping that we all live long live and become even better friends.
Every now and then I tell you things like you’re the reason that I’m going down the right path. You don’t know what that means right now. What it means to me is that I think of you any time I make a decision and I think about how those decisions can affect our lives. And as a result of that, I’ve made better choices because you are in my life.
Here is a picture of Raven I drew. I didn’t know what I was starting to draw, but you said it looked like Raven so I added the gem, blue hair and cloak LOL.
I asked you today “What do you want to say to future Jameson?” and you said “I want a Spider-Man toy!”
Hope you are doing good kiddo. Can’t wait for you to read this.